Church is the Tool for the Week

I'll admit, I haven't gone to church in about about two months. I didn't go because I felt like the people in church would never accept me. I had some serious self-esteem issues. It's true that you will NEVER find the perfect church. You will NEVER escape from the hypocrisy. Of course, I prayed before I went to bed, but I felt that it wasn't the same. I felt further from God. I told Him that I felt further and asked Him to show me how to be closer to Him. He said I needed to go back to church. It didn't matter what the people thought of me. I have a pastor who understands me and my family. My pastor is like an uncle to me. It's been that way since I was a child. He's seen me grow up to this teenage-looking adult you have today. Even through my punk rock phase, he's never rejected me and told me he loved me. Even when I dropped out of WOLBI, he's never ever held it against me. He prayed for me. I am so thankful to have a pastor like mine. But, most importantly, that God placed him in my life.

Today, I went back to church with a new heart. I don't go to church for the people. I go to church to learn about the Word. There will always be sin in the church, but there will never be anyone to stop me from going. We've got to be children of peace. How else will we do it when we're not on the Word? Gosh, it's only once a week that we get to hear someone preaching.

Then, through that time of my absence from church, it had me wondering why we blame our unfortunates on God. Whenever something bad happens, it's God's fault. Can we please grow up? Humans have the tendency to put the blame on someone else. I am at fault; sometimes, I blame my sister. But, if we blame everything on God, how can we love Him? So, church is an excuse because of the people? We've got to let go of this eye mask, and it isn't cucumbers, it's cement. We've got to break free from this thinking because it's selfish. You've got to like it, love it, need the Word. You've got it want it like babies crying for milk. It's not the people that display God, it's you reading His Word and having faith.

Sure, not everyone is going to like you in this world, but God will always love you no matter what. You can kill someone, and God will still love you and forgive you. No joke. If the Word says anything otherwise, please let me know. If not, then shut up because you're lying! God is everywhere and seeing everything we do. Don't put words in His mouth!

From all this, it swirls me to think about my time at WOLBI. Ever since I've quited, I grew a hatred towards them. I hated their theology and felt that they were a cult. Honestly, I still believe they are a cult, but I feel God telling me that I need to ask for forgiveness. The day I dropped out was one of the worst days of my life. God had me there for a reason, and I chose to do it my way. That's my pastor's catchphrase: I WANT IT MY WAY!!! Just as he sings it with his operatic voice. I can't hate them forever. Maybe God doesn't agree with some of their teachings, but He still loves them. I feel like calling Mrs. Garland or Mrs. Gray and ask for forgiveness for my actions. Today in church, I realized what the authority figure is. Though I felt WOLBI really exaggerated that idea, I realized that wherever we go, we need someone to tell us what to do in order to be knowledgable. I don't know if one day God will say that I need to go back and finish. If He does, He will tell in a humorous way, like He always does.

God is not stuffy; He's funny! He loves to see us smile! Church is a tool because without it, how will we structure our week? What will we reflect our week on? I love what the pastor said today: He said he went to a retreat in Upstate and a pastor there told him that he was thankful to not be a pastor in New York City. My pastor said he was thankful to be a pastor in New York City and not him. He said being a pastor here was a priveledge. How else will the people of NYC learn the truth without a pastor to start a church? Would we all turn Times Square into porn nation again?

You'll be seeing me in church more often. I really should start passing out tracts. I love God and I'm glad He showed me that I should go back. Don't blame your unfortunates on God. You will be blind and depressed forever.

In Christ alone, my hope is found. He is my light, my strength, my song. This cornerstone, this solid ground, burned by the fiercest drought and storm. What heights of love? What depths of peace? When fears are stilled, when strivings cease. My Comforter, my All in All. Jesus commands my destiny!

"For it is better to suffer for doing good, if that should be God's will, than for doing evil"- 1 Peter 3:17 (ESV)

Hispanic Meaning

Hispanic
It means
Someone of Latin origin

Not
Someone who eats cuchifritos

Hispanic
It means
Someone who comes from a Spanish-speaking country

Not
Someone who is ghetto loud

Hispanic
It means
Someone whose background has many colors

Not
Tan people exclusively

Hispanic
It means
Beautiful culture

Not
Discrimination out of ignorance

Why is it that Hispanics straight from their country accept me
More than Hispanic Americans?

Because they don’t know the true meaning of Hispanic.

Mountain Rose Herbs Recipe Contest

Cold cream has been around for thousands of years. All credit goes to Galen, the man who envisioned oil and water mixed together. It was a genius idea. Today, we have shamefully replaced the natural ingredients the people of the past just saw as part of everyday life with mineral oil and fragrance to keep costs down. I'll tell you what keep costs down: doing-it-yourself. What makes it even better is you know what you're using and you can be sure through whichever supplier you buy from, you will be guaranteed excellent quality and know where exactly your ingredients come from. That is the feeling I have with Mountain Rose Herbs. I trust them to deliver truly organic west coast love to my east coast love.

Here is my recipe for Sweet Orange Rose Cold Cream. The secret to this recipe is horsetail extract. Horsetail (Equisetum Arvense) is also known as Shavegrass. It is the only plant with the highest silica content. Silica is also known as cell food. It keeps your skin looking younger! Sweet orange is an anti-depressant, as well as rose. The combination of the two makes you feel like you're on a Caribbean getaway with roses in your hair. I'm from the Dominican Republic and the sweet orange essential oil Mountain Rose Herbs supplies comes from there. Now, they're really spreading the west coast love! So now, let me introduce to you my wonderful recipe that may satisfy your inner light.

Sweet Orange Rose Cold Cream

2 tablespoons beeswax, pastille or grated
1/4 cup rosewater
1/2 cup olive oil
1/2 teaspoon borax powder
1 teaspoon sweet orange essential oil
1/4 teaspoon horsetail extract

Combine beeswax and olive oil and place in a heatproof glass or ceramic container and place it in a pan of boiling water. Allow beeswax to melt and stir. Dissolve borax in rosewater and heat it in a pan or microwave. Do not let it boil. Once the olive oil and beeswax have combined, combine it with the hot rosewater/borax with a stick blender or hand mixer. Add sweet orange essential oil and stir. Then, add the horsetail extract and stir for the last time. Pour into a cute and clean glass or plastic container. The cold cream should be thick, but it will get thicker once it cools.

To use: Wet face. Scoop some cold cream and massage into the skin. This is a great opportunity to massage your face! Rinse well, then wipe with a tissue to remove excess. You will be left with glowing, moisturized, and healthy skin!

I really hope you enjoy this recipe as much as I did. Remember, never allow anything to come across with nature, because nature will always find you.

Peace, kisses, and amor.

My Gold Medal Prized Art Short Essay (lolz moment)

Okay, I wasn't serious when I said I was going to hang it up on my fridge. It's inside a drawer in the living room where I put all my school notes, exams, and quizzes. My art professor really did read it out loud and awarded me the "gold medal", although it was only a verbal medal. Here it is by request from my favorite cousin Gino and to others who want to read it. It is about a statue made by Antonio Canova called Cupid and Psyche.

Cupid and Psyche was love-at-first sight when I ventured through the Metropolitan Museum of Art. The position of Psyche’s arms reaching to Cupid is pure grace. It shows the femininity of women. When I saw it, it made me feel loved because Cupid is holding Psyche. I felt a feeling that it is only with love that you may forgive someone. It felt as if no matter what happens that Cupid was there for Psyche. Psyche looked like in a troubled state, but now is feeling rescued. I really liked the way the artist positions their bodies; Psyche laying down with her upper portion raised and Cupid on top in a bending down position. Usually it is women that gain control over men. Men have a supernatural feeling of always being indestructible. But, when he lays his heart on a woman, he becomes weak. In this model, it is the woman, mainly Psyche, reaching out to the man, Cupid. She wants his help and his kind heart is there for her. The artist sent me a message saying that both male and female may lay down their armor of superiority and rescue each other of any troubles. It surpasses feminism and macho. Antonio Canova has taught me a lesson on the equality of love.

Loves and kisses and lots of sweet pleasures...

Ignorant Asks and Says People Throw About the Bronx

It is sometimes intimidating when someone asks me if I live in the city. Like, what does that determine? That I have an education and well-off? Go to Pelham Parkway and Throggs Neck, sucker. Sometimes, I lie and say I live in Westchester; that really shuts them up. But, when I say I live in the Bronx, it's like you just opened a packet of instant oatmeal, I'm a criminal. I'm stupid, hopeless, and will forever live the stereotype. Here are the top asks and says people tell me out of transparent ignorance.

1. Q: Are there trees in the Bronx?
A: Yes, idiot, there are. I see them through my window, as well as Pelham Bay Park, the largest park in New York City. Sorry, Central Park doesn't cut it; it's dirty in my opinion. We also have the Bronx Zoo, which is also the largest zoo in New York City and the New York Botanical Garden, where there are trees, flowers, and preserved wildlife, not a toxic dumpsite disguised with a pretty name.

2. Say: I'm going to 86th Street. That's all the way in Uptown Manhattan.
A: No freaking duh. I totally know where 86th Street is, and 42nd Street, and Park Avenue, and Rector Street, and Maiden Lane, and all those streets your overrated island has. Even if you live in the "outer" boroughs, you have to know how to get through Manhattan. If you don't, you need to get out more. At least I get passed 96th Street.

3. Q: Have you seen anyone getting stabbed?
A: No, I've never seen anyone getting stabbed.

4. Q: Have you seen anyone getting raped?
A: No, I've never seen anyone getting raped.

5. Q: Have you ever been mugged?
A: No, I've never been mugged.

6. Q: Have you seen anyone getting killed?
A: Gosh, what is up with these violent questions? No, imbecile, I've never seen a violent action except for fist fighting in the Bronx! No one's robbed my purse, raped me, nor done anything to hurt me.

7. Say: Our local from New York said if we stay past 7:00pm, we would get robbed because we are white.
A: Are you freaking kidding me? What kind of people live in 187th Street and Arthur Avenue? Italians. What about Pelham Bay Park? Albanians, Greeks, and Jewish. Yes, there are still Jewish people here! Throggs Neck, Country Club, Silver Beach, Riverdale, and Pelham Bay Park have what the majority would call the "white" race. You will be fine, geez.

8. Q: Have you seen anyone getting arrested?
A: Yes, I have, and I've also seen it in Manhattan. You can't escape crime.

9. Say: There are more homeless people in the Bronx than Manhattan.
A: Wrong! Go to Union Square, SoHo, and anywhere in the downtown Manhattan area. There are many homeless people asking for food and money. In the Bronx? Not so much. We have shelters and city funded housing called the projects. You won't believe the difference.

And, the most ignorant question of all time...

10. Q: Is the Bronx dangerous?
A: It's not 1977 anymore. It's 2010. Get over it and come here.

Please come and take a visit. Edgar Allen Poe's house is here, as well as what was once the largest movie theatre in the world, along the lines of the street with the most wondrous buildings you'll ever see. This is the beautiful Bronx!

Marijuana is a Christian

Why should marijuana be legalized? Because God says so!


“Take the finest spices: of liquid myrrh 500 shekles, and of sweet-smelling cinnamon half as much, that is 250, and 250 of aromatic cane,”- Exodus 30:23

“Nard and saffron, calamus and cinnamon, with all trees of frankincense, myrrh and aloes, with all chief spices-”- Song of Solomon 4:14

“You have not bought me sweet cane with money, or satisfied me with the fat of your sacrifices. But you have burdened me with your sins; you have wearied me with your iniquites.”- Isaiah 43:24

“What use to me is frankincense that comes from Sheba, or sweet cane from a distant land? Your burnt offerings are not acceptable, nor your sacrifices pleasing to me.”- Jeremiah 6:20

“And casks of wine from Uzal they exchanged for your wares; wrought iron, cassia, and calamus were bartered for your merchandise.”- Ezekiel 27:19


The Hebrew term “kaneh bosom” translates to “aromatic cane” and “sweet cane”, which gives the translation to the Greek word “cannabis”.

“Calamus” gets mistranslated many times because of translations. The term “kaneh” was then said “cannabbos”, which was taken to mean that it is an unidentifiable plant.


The holy anointing oil used in Exodus 30 had about 30 pounds of marijuana! Does the Bible talk about smoking it? It seems like it is mostly used for sacrificing. Even the three powerful prophets, Isaiah, Jeremiah, and Ezekiel reference marijuana. Christians should stop hiding the secrets of marijuana and pray to make it legal! If we all read and believe the same Bible, then there is nothing to hide.

I Heard Petroleum Baths Are Beneficial

We humans have allowed ourselves to depend on petroleum. It's everywhere, literally. We rub the stuff on our skin, we eat it, we breathe it. Yes, we breathe it! The petroleum distillates we breathe when we walk through a gas station. The lotion we rub on our skin after taking a shower. It's full of petrolatum (Vaseline), PEG, and mineral oil. the BHT and TBHQ the General Mills implanted into our food for "freshness". Yes, America, we have a significant petroleum dependence.

And from there led to the amazing chemical industry. You see, we are very very far from nature. Go tell anyone that by drinking clay, it will get rid of toxins in your body. That's right; they won't believe you. Doctors have administered petrochemicals into our bodies for over a hundred years. This new mindset of medicine is far from what the term "medicine" should define. Doctors are poisoning us every day with this "medicine". It has come to a point that we no longer value what God created and leave behind by what was once known as fact, now a myth, to the twenty-first century's humanistic eye.

When we watch the fabric softener commercials, oh the glory of watching that flawless lady run outside into the fresh open fields and holding that warm blanket. She smells it's lovely fragrance of pure and natural scent. She smells petroleum, ladies. Sorry, it's true. How? Well, there is absolutely nothing natural about those fabric softeners! The chemical companies display free flowing nature commercials about their products to get the idealism that it is natural in some way. When we smell that tube of sunscreen, doesn't that remind us of going to the beach? Beach is natural. Sunscreen, uh, no. It's got the same idea. Yes, we are zillions of miles away from nature.

The lotion advertises that it has aloe and oatmeal as its components to make your skin super soft. Why doesn't it claim that it's the mineral oil? Johnson and Johnson baby oil advertises that it makes your skin super soft. It never tells you why. Petrochemicals are constantly being rubbed into our bodies like it's a ritual. Propylene glycol is anti-freeze. Hello, do you want anti-freeze in your body? It's also in your toothpaste. Don't believe me? Check. Toluene is in nail polish, or I should say, once in American nail polish. Now that the American market finally realized that toluene is toxic, I wondered where they sent all the toxic nail polishes. Well, on my visit to Dominican Republic, in the beauty section at La Sirena, the Dominican Wal-Mart, every single nail polish had toluene and dibutyl phthalate, which is another highly toxic petrochemical that causes birth defects in baby boys. Did you know 95% of perfumes, including designer perfumes, contain petrochemicals? Please do more research on the toxicity of personal care at www.cosmeticsdatabase.com.

Wood varnishes, shoe polish, ink, chewing gum, corn, pantyhose, shampoo, yarn, and so many other products contain petroleum. A while ago, I wondered where plastic came from. I've been told they were synthetic, artificial, and nature can't reproduce it. So, where in the world does this item come from? I read an article about sugar fibers and its use to make plastic. It mentioned that our convential plastic was made of petroleum. I was like, "What? Yuck! How?" From there it planted a seed of knowledge. It slowly grew as I learned what petroleum makes. That now we have depended so much on this "wonder", it will slowly curve to the curiosity of what would happen if there were no more oil.

The funny thing is that people don't want to believe me when I say that petroleum makes everything. We are slowly running out of oil. The damage has been done. If mineral oil shrink wraps our skin, then it's the petrochemicals floating around in the air shrink wrapping it, thus causing global warming. The artificial coloring in our desserts, the color in hair dye, the styrofoam that comes in our package, should lead the American public to ask, "If it's synthetic, where does it come from?" It's common sense. Here is a website that covers partially what petroleum makes: http://www.ranken-energy.com/Products%20from%20Petroleum.htm

Will America ever decide to switch from styrofoam, to sugar based equivilants? Will American women realize they have been poisoning their bodies for many years? Will the government finally stop using petroleum and start looking into the mythological nature derivatives? To be honest, I hope that this will be a lesson. When the Earth runs out of petroleum, it may be the cause of World War III.